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I am a dancer, actress, lover, fighter, sister, daughter, friend, neighbor, insane believer in the worlds goodness, and much more. this is a little place where I like to share my thoughts, rants and creative writings! Hope you enjoy!! :)

summer is slowly arriving

  • tonight So You Think You Can Dance premieres
  • tomorrow Jared comes home
  • natalie also arrives back tomorrow
  • possibly going dancing tonight (if I’m not too sleepy)
  • saturday will hopefully be spent poolside with my best friends
  • sunday will be cookout time at jareds house with everyone to celebrate memorial day
  • tuesday I’m going to go to an audition for a summer show of Guys and Dolls (not paid but worth the experience)

with all my peoples getting back into town and such i feel like summer can finally begin!! I’m so ready to have all my friends and especially my man back in town!! i know people do long distance all the time and whatnot but after spending the last 3 summers in a long distance relationship with someone else i am so beyond excited to have my boyfriend around me for all the summer fun!!! bring it summer 2012!! i want you to blow summer 2011 out of the water!!

wolffangs:



They told me the big black Lab’s name was Reggie, as I looked at him lying in his pen. The shelter was clean, no-kill, and the people really friendly. I’d only been in the area for six months, but everywhere I went in the small college town, people were welcoming and open. Everyone waves when you pass them on the street.
But something was still missing as I attempted to settle in to my new life here, and I thought a dog couldn’t hurt. Give me someone to talk to. And I had just seen Reggie’s advertisement on the local news. The shelter said they had received numerous calls right after, but they said the people who had come down to see him just didn’t look like “Lab people,” whatever that meant. They must’ve thought I did.But at first, I thought the shelter had misjudged me in giving me Reggie and his things, which consisted of a dog pad, bag of toys almost all of which were brand new tennis balls, his dishes and a sealed letter from his previous owner.See, Reggie and I didn’t really hit it off when we got home. We struggled for two weeks (which is how long the shelter told me to give him to adjust to his new home). Maybe it was the fact that I was trying to adjust, too.Maybe we were too much alike.I saw the sealed envelope. I had completely forgotten about that. “Okay, Reggie,” I said out loud, “let’s see if your previous owner has any advice.”____________ _________ _________ _________To Whomever Gets My Dog:Well, I can’t say that I’m happy you’re reading this, a letter I told the shelter could only be opened by Reggie’s new owner. I’m not even happy writing it. He knew something was different.So let me tell you about my Lab in the hopes that it will help you bond with him and he with you.First, he loves tennis balls. The more the merrier. Sometimes I think he’s part squirrel, the way he hoards them. He usually always has two in his mouth, and he tries to get a third in there. Hasn’t done it yet. Doesn’tmatter where you throw them, he’ll bound after them, so be careful. Don’t do it by any roads.Next, commands. Reggie knows the obvious ones —-“sit,” “stay,” “come,” “heel.”He knows hand signals, too: He knows “ball” and “food” and “bone” and “treat” like nobody’s business.Feeding schedule: twice a day, regular store-bought stuff; the shelter has the brand.He’s up on his shots. Be forewarned: Reggie hates the vet. Good luck getting him in the car. I don’t know how he knows when it’s time to go to the vet, but he knows.Finally, give him some time. It’s only been Reggie and me for his whole life. He’s gone everywhere with me, so please include him on your daily car rides if you can. He sits well in the backseat, and he doesn’t bark or complain. He just loves to be around people, and me most especially.And that’s why I need to share one more bit of info with you…His name’s not Reggie. He’s a smart dog, he’ll get used to it and will respond to it, of that I have no doubt. But I just couldn’t bear to give them his real name. But if someone is reading this … well it means that his new owner should know his real name. His real name is “Tank.” Because, that is what I drive.I told the shelter that they couldn’t make “Reggie” available for adoption until they received word from my company commander. You see, my parents are gone, I have no siblings, no one I could’ve left Tank with .. and it was my only real request of the Army upon my deployment to Iraq, that they make one phone call to the shelter … in the “event” … to tell them that Tank could be put up for adoption. Luckily, my CO is a dog-guy, too, and he knew where my platoon was headed. He said he’d do it personally. And if you’re reading this, then he made good on his word.Tank has been my family for the last six years, almost as long as the Army has been my family. And now I hope and pray that you make him part of your family, too, and that he will adjust and come to love you the same way heloved me.If I have to give up Tank to keep those terrible people from coming to the US I am glad to have done so. He is my example of service and of love. I hope I honored him by my service to my country and comrades.All right, that’s enough. I deploy this evening and have to drop this letter off at the shelter. Maybe I’ll peek in on him and see if he finally got that third tennis ball in his mouth.Good luck with Tank. Give him a good home, and give him an extra kiss goodnight - every night - from me.Thank you,Paul Mallory____________ _________ _________ _______I folded the letter and slipped it back in the envelope. Sure, I had heard of Paul Mallory, everyone in town knew him, even new people like me. Local kid, killed in Iraq a few months ago and posthumously earning the SilverStar when he gave his life to save three buddies. Flags had been at half-mast all summer.I leaned forward in my chair and rested my elbows on my knees, staring at the dog.“Hey, Tank,” I said quietly.The dog’s head whipped up, his ears cocked and his eyes bright.“C’mere boy.”He was instantly on his feet, his nails clicking on the hardwood floor. He sat in front of me, his head tilted, searching for the name he hadn’t heard in months. “Tank,” I whispered.His tail swished.I kept whispering his name, over and over, and each time, his ears lowered, his eyes softened, and his posture relaxed as a wave of contentment just seemed to flood him. I stroked his ears, rubbed his shoulders, buried myface into his scruff and hugged him.“It’s me now, Tank, just you and me. Your old pal gave you to me.” Tank reached up and licked my cheek.“So whatdaya say we play some ball?” His ears perked again.“Yeah? Ball? You like that? Ball?”Tank tore from my hands and disappeared into the next room. And when he came back, he had three tennis balls in his mouth.”



Too amazing.

wolffangs:

They told me the big black Lab’s name was Reggie, as I looked at him lying in his pen. The shelter was clean, no-kill, and the people really friendly. I’d only been in the area for six months, but everywhere I went in the small college town, people were welcoming and open. Everyone waves when you pass them on the street.


But something was still missing as I attempted to settle in to my new life here, and I thought a dog couldn’t hurt. Give me someone to talk to. And I had just seen Reggie’s advertisement on the local news. The shelter said they had received numerous calls right after, but they said the people who had come down to see him just didn’t look like “Lab people,” whatever that meant. They must’ve thought I did.

But at first, I thought the shelter had misjudged me in giving me Reggie and his things, which consisted of a dog pad, bag of toys almost all of which were brand new tennis balls, his dishes and a sealed letter from his previous owner.

See, Reggie and I didn’t really hit it off when we got home. We struggled for two weeks (which is how long the shelter told me to give him to adjust to his new home). Maybe it was the fact that I was trying to adjust, too.
Maybe we were too much alike.

I saw the sealed envelope. I had completely forgotten about that. “Okay, Reggie,” I said out loud, “let’s see if your previous owner has any advice.”
____________ _________ _________ _________

To Whomever Gets My Dog:

Well, I can’t say that I’m happy you’re reading this, a letter I told the shelter could only be opened by Reggie’s new owner. I’m not even happy writing it. He knew something was different.

So let me tell you about my Lab in the hopes that it will help you bond with him and he with you.

First, he loves tennis balls. The more the merrier. Sometimes I think he’s part squirrel, the way he hoards them. He usually always has two in his mouth, and he tries to get a third in there. Hasn’t done it yet. Doesn’t
matter where you throw them, he’ll bound after them, so be careful. Don’t do it by any roads.

Next, commands. Reggie knows the obvious ones —-“sit,” “stay,” “come,” “heel.”

He knows hand signals, too: He knows “ball” and “food” and “bone” and “treat” like nobody’s business.

Feeding schedule: twice a day, regular store-bought stuff; the shelter has the brand.

He’s up on his shots. Be forewarned: Reggie hates the vet. Good luck getting him in the car. I don’t know how he knows when it’s time to go to the vet, but he knows.

Finally, give him some time. It’s only been Reggie and me for his whole life. He’s gone everywhere with me, so please include him on your daily car rides if you can. He sits well in the backseat, and he doesn’t bark or complain. He just loves to be around people, and me most especially.

And that’s why I need to share one more bit of info with you…His name’s not Reggie. He’s a smart dog, he’ll get used to it and will respond to it, of that I have no doubt. But I just couldn’t bear to give them his real name. But if someone is reading this … well it means that his new owner should know his real name. His real name is “Tank.” Because, that is what I drive.

I told the shelter that they couldn’t make “Reggie” available for adoption until they received word from my company commander. You see, my parents are gone, I have no siblings, no one I could’ve left Tank with .. and it was my only real request of the Army upon my deployment to Iraq, that they make one phone call to the shelter … in the “event” … to tell them that Tank could be put up for adoption. Luckily, my CO is a dog-guy, too, and he knew where my platoon was headed. He said he’d do it personally. And if you’re reading this, then he made good on his word.

Tank has been my family for the last six years, almost as long as the Army has been my family. And now I hope and pray that you make him part of your family, too, and that he will adjust and come to love you the same way he
loved me.

If I have to give up Tank to keep those terrible people from coming to the US I am glad to have done so. He is my example of service and of love. I hope I honored him by my service to my country and comrades.

All right, that’s enough. I deploy this evening and have to drop this letter off at the shelter. Maybe I’ll peek in on him and see if he finally got that third tennis ball in his mouth.

Good luck with Tank. Give him a good home, and give him an extra kiss goodnight - every night - from me.

Thank you,

Paul Mallory
____________ _________ _________ _______

I folded the letter and slipped it back in the envelope. Sure, I had heard of Paul Mallory, everyone in town knew him, even new people like me. Local kid, killed in Iraq a few months ago and posthumously earning the Silver
Star when he gave his life to save three buddies. Flags had been at half-mast all summer.

I leaned forward in my chair and rested my elbows on my knees, staring at the dog.

“Hey, Tank,” I said quietly.

The dog’s head whipped up, his ears cocked and his eyes bright.

“C’mere boy.”

He was instantly on his feet, his nails clicking on the hardwood floor. He sat in front of me, his head tilted, searching for the name he hadn’t heard in months. “Tank,” I whispered.

His tail swished.

I kept whispering his name, over and over, and each time, his ears lowered, his eyes softened, and his posture relaxed as a wave of contentment just seemed to flood him. I stroked his ears, rubbed his shoulders, buried my
face into his scruff and hugged him.

“It’s me now, Tank, just you and me. Your old pal gave you to me.” Tank reached up and licked my cheek.

“So whatdaya say we play some ball?” His ears perked again.

“Yeah? Ball? You like that? Ball?”

Tank tore from my hands and disappeared into the next room. And when he came back, he had three tennis balls in his mouth.”


Too amazing.

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JARED IS BACK IN DALLAS!!!!

after 6 days in the bahamas my favorite man Jared Thomas is back on the ground in dallas and that means he is only a few days away from being back in lubbock!! i don’t think i have ever been soo excited for one person to be coming home with the exception of seeing my parents after their trips to vegas when i was little. i can’t wait to hug him close and kiss him over and over!!! :D

bahahaha yes!

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dog: every meal you bake
dog: every bite you take
dog: i’ll be watching you

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growing up, growing apart, falling together

in a matter of a few short days everything about my life is changed. I’m officially a college graduate and as freeing as it is to know i’ve completed that section of my life I’m scared shitless looking forward. i’ve spent the last sixteen years of my twenty two years in school and learning and being told what to do and what i should expect to be next. now I’m supposed to be thrust into the wild world and figure it all out for myself. its scary as hell and i’ve got nothing but a churning stomach full of anxiety. the stomach issues may have a little to do with the excessive celebrations i allowed myself to partake in last night. a few too many drinks and a few missing memories later i’ve spent all day on the couch wishing for sweet death to find me and put me out of my misery. i’ve had lots of time to just lay here and contemplate so many different parts of my life. with jared in the bahamas i’m feeling very excited and anxious for him to be back and enjoy this new transition from student to real world with me. I’m letting myself fall hard for him and I’m putting lots of trust that he will be there for me and let me draw support from him as i try to figure out what i want to do with my new life and this new chapter. he makes me realize how happy my life is with him in it. he brings out the best of me, in happiness, in adventure, in every single way. he makes me try new things, new foods, and he makes me feel like everything in life is able to bring me some sort of happiness. he makes me realize that each day is worth smiling and enjoying it and that at the same time you have to be disciplined enough to put the hard work to receive reward. I’m leaving behind a chapter that has been my whole life and I’m not sure how to handle it. i just know I’m hoping jared will be standing beside me, holding my hand and making me smile for whatever journey I’m about to begin. 

I miss you and I’m sorry for whatever I did wrong. I hope someday you can forgive me for those transgressions. I have found peace and someone who makes me strong

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new beginnings/old problems

whoo graduation is so close i can feel it! today i got my new computer (thanks to the best parents in the world ever!!) but work was a beeeyyyaaatch!! I’m so stressed trying to balance my final schedule and get a decent recital churned out on saturday. our managers expect abby and i to be experts at this recital planning but realistically we have never done it on our own so we are just guessing! its not our fault that when we measured kids in january they were one size and now that its may they are a different size!! they grew, we couldn’t stop them! handing me a costume and then staring at me like i know what to do is pointless. out of 45 students we have had to make 5 alterations, i would say our batting average is decent. lets add just how much fun it is listening to everyone ask me questions that i don’t know answers to because i haven’t had more than 3 seconds to actually think about the recital because i was helping with the gymnastics showcase last weekend. where are all the gym teachers to help us with stuff??? oye i need a stiff drink and a long weekend with no commitments!!

Total Happiness and Bliss

Today was one of the best day ever. I got to pick up Jared from the airport after 4 days of him being in Dallas!! As if that wasn’t enough to make me smile all day then we devised a plan in which we got to have a mini date and spend the afternoon together!! Off to J&B we went to enjoy a dr pepper float and some serious study time!! Then to add another extra cherry on top of this amazing day I was invited to join him and jace at their house for dinner. We made homemade pizza and got to watch the big bang theory. I can’t fall asleep because I’m still on the high from getting to be around him all day! He brings out the best in me and I can’t for a second remember being this happy until he was in my life. I don’t want to jinx this amazing relationship that I have found, but then again I don’t see how anyone or anything could ever do anything to destroy all this happiness. I think its safe to say I’m falling hard and I might even be falling in love…

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lesupernerd:

Once you reach your 6th Year in Hogwarts, you start to get used to all the shit.

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When I say “I love you,” its not because I want you or because I can’t have you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, what you do, and how you try. I’ve seen your kindness and your strength. I’ve seen the best and the worst of you. And I understand with perfect clarity exactly what and who you are.

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Love this!

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Best 3 minutes of the day!

I’m the hopeless romantic when it comes to missing the person I’m with. Today the best 3 minutes of my day were sitting in the bathtub and my Jared called just to check in. He said he missed me and we made a plan to get him from the airport on Tuesday. I’m so excited that he gets to meet Tech alum and network and especially thrilled that he gets to have breakfast with Mark Cuban!! So while he’s away I’ll wear his tshirt to bed and text him any chance I have! I can’t wait for Tuesday!!